I am in a funk. This is not unusual for me but this year it's the worst that I can remember in a long time. It's caused my 'scrap it all' thinking to arrive about a month early.
It happens every year. As the seasons change from Summer to Fall I start itching to put the garden away, to just be done with it. The things that didn't do as well as I hoped just irk me and I don't want to look at them anymore. The things that are doing better than I ever imagined just irk me and I don't want to look at them anymore.
I just find the whole thing irksome.
I found myself pre-planning our Halloween display yesterday.
And I still haven't figured out my garden plans. It's obvious that the Hydrangea has to move. Even when it receives enough water the sun is just too much for it. When I planted it I didn't know it was a shade lover and it gets a full 6 hours of sun every day and it just doesn't like it.
And then there's the scraggly appearance of it all. The only garden passersby see is the front garden and that's the one that always looks scruffy, like my childhood dog. I want it to be full - and this year it looks its fullest ever - but I still have yet to achieve that look.
Hopefully I'll cheer up soon. I would hate to find myself ripping up flowers mid-August simply out of frustration.